Friday, July 31, 2015

Embrace Your Demons

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English: Return of the jedi logo made from 0 on photoshopo cs5 EspaƱol: Logo Return of the jedi, hecho desde 0 en photoshop cs5 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
"So be it....Jedi" - Emperor Pallpatine, Star Wars Episode VI: the Return of the Jedi

We all have demons. I've shared most of mine with you. I'm a geek who got bullied a lot when I was younger. That tends to drive my decisions throughout my life. There is something that got me over that hump.  It's called no longer giving a fuck.

As you get older, you realize that people will form an opinion of you, regardless of what you do. It may be based on your action, gender, race, whatever. The question is are you going to let their opinions rule you or are you going to rule your own life? When are you going to say "so be it" and get on with your life? Once I figured out that my life was my own, it freed me up.

I no longer run from my insecurities. I embrace them. I let them fuel my fire, not control it.  I feed off of my demons. They make me stronger, more alive. Fear doesn't own me any more. Once you've made that turn in your mindset, you'd be surprised how far you'll go and what you can and are willing to do. So embrace your demons. Don't fight against them. Once you do that, they'll free your soul.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

TMI Tuesday

Courtesy of TMI Tuesday Blog
1. Are you privy to a secret about a famous person? Yes. Many. Do you read gossip about famous people in magazines or online ? Only when they show up on my Facebook or Twitter feeds.
2. Do you know of a co-worker, friend or neighbor who is currently having an affair? No. Are you having an affair? Not married so no.
3. Have you ever had a secret that made you the subject of gossip? Not that I know of.
4. Do you like hearing gossip? Sometimes. What kind interests you most, e.g. sexual behavior, drug use, lying, betrayal, etc? Sexual behavior is the only type I like to hear about.
5. Do you pass gossip on when you hear it? Not so much, no.
6. Do you consider telling your spouse or partner to be consistent with a promise not to tell? No
Bonus: What is one private thing that you would like to know about someone? Their sex lives.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Smoke 'Em if You've Got 'Em

That phrase was said in just about every World War II movie I ever saw. It was usually said during a break in the action, just before the troops were going to go off to battle. Officially, it meant that if you had cigarettes, smoke them now because shit was about to get real and you wouldn't have the chance again for a long time.

In my world, it means say how you feel about someone because you may never get the chance ever again. In other words, take advantage of your opportunities while you have them. I've said it before but it does nobody any good to say nice things about someone after that person's gone. People need to hear these things while they're still alive or around. When they're gone, the moment's past.

One of the great things that I'll treasure forever is that I got a chance to tell my uncle how much he meant to my life before he passed on a while back. At least he knew. Some people aren't so lucky. Some lives are taken too abruptly. You don't get that chance so why, when given that chance, do you not take it?

You want to start a relationship with someone? Let that person know. Who cares if you're a woman? Women get to make the first move these days. It's 2015, for God's sake. Grow some and get some. What's the worst that could happen, the person laughs at you? Been there, done that, got a guy on 42nd street hawking the t shirt to the tourists. Life is about percentages. The only percentage that's guaranteed is .000. That's the exact percentage for the number of shots you make if you don't at least try to make one.

You can live your life with a lot of regrets. Don't let not telling someone how you feel be one of them.

Friday, July 24, 2015

Cock Worship

I’ve spoken with women who have told me how much they love their pussy. They love the shape it is. They just love everything about it. Well, I love my cock. I know it’s self indulgent but I do. It’s 8" long and 2" thick. It’s cleanshaven because the ladies like that.
I love the way it feels in my hand when it’s hard. It’s like carrying around a big thick pipe. I love the way a woman’s mouth feels when she’s going up and down on it. To date, I’ve only had one woman deep throat all of it and lick my balls at the same time. I love the feel of my cum shooting into her waiting mouth; her “reward for a job well done”, as one woman told me. I love the feeling when it enters a woman. The throbbing as it moves in and out. In short, I love everything about my cock. The best thing that I like about it, though, is the way it pleases women.
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Tuesday, July 21, 2015

TMI Tuesday

English: Major Laser performing at Sasquatch 2011
English: Major Laser performing at Sasquatch 2011 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Another TMI post from

1. What’s the most annoying song in the world? Right now, Bitch Better Have My Money.
2. What’s the saddest song in the world? Not sure. One doesn't come to mind.
3. What’s the sexiest song in the world? Anything by Barry White.
4. Name a new, to you, band or music artist that you can’t get enough of? Major Lazer 
Post a link to one of their songs.
5. Have you met any famous musicians? Too many to count. It's part of my job.
6. What song best describes your life? Limp Bizkit - Break Stuff
7. How important is your partner’s taste in music to you? She has to be open minded about music.
8. Do you sing in the shower? No.
9. What was the last live music show you attended? Probably a dj set at a club. 
Did you buy a t-shirt? No.
10. What’s the sweetest song in the world? One doesn't come to mind.
11. Can you play a musical instrument? Lots. It's what I originally went to college for.
12. Are you in a band or are you a performing solo music artist? Used to be out of school. Not so much now. 
13. Have you ever dated a musician? Yes.
14. Are you a groupie? No.
– If yes, for what artist/band?
– If no, do you wish you were and for what music performing artist or band? No.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Game Playing and Chasing

This is really the only comfortable way to pla...
This is really the only comfortable way to play a Virtual Boy: supine, with a sock on your nose. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I'm not one to chase or to go after someone who's playing hard to get. I look at chasing in a couple different ways. Playing hard to get is a form of manipulation, plain and simple. You're twisting someone's emotions in order to get the response that you desire. It could be in the form of being a straight up cock tease (the ones who go to the club and lead guys on so that they can get free drinks or drugs) or it could be manipulating a person in hopes that the person will want what they can't have at the moment; thus, making you more desirable. Either way, it makes you not trustworthy and trust is a huge thing with me.

Playing hard to get is just playing games. Games are for kids and I don't play games. Life's too short to play around like that and too many people waste their time doing it. I'm straight up and was brought up to be that way. If I'm interested in you sexually, I'll let you know. If I'm interested in you emotionally, I'll let you know. You'll always know where you stand with me. There's never a need to chase.

Friday, July 17, 2015

Real Men Go Down

Black sesame soft ice cream. in Kakunodate, Ak...
Black sesame soft ice cream. in Kakunodate, Akita, Japan. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
This one's for all the men (and probably a few women). Go down on a woman. Go down on every part of her if she likes it. I can't stress that enough.

Fellas, let's be blunt here. If you expect a woman to give you a blow job, then you better be eating her pussy. Otherwise, it's not fair. Real men eat pussy. If she wants you to lick her crack, you better lick it with gusto. If she wants you to tongue her ass hole, you go down on it like it's ice cream. If you don't know how, you better learn. Watch some videos on the internet and practice, practice, practice. Practicing like this is fun, you know? :)

You do everything sexually to a woman in order to pleasure her. If you do, then that woman will be calling you at all hours of the day and night wanting you to come and please her again. That's a win win in my book.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

TMI Tuesday

Little Caesars Pizza Station in Brno, Czech Re...
Little Caesars Pizza Station in Brno, Czech Republic (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Another TMI from

1. Which would you rather do and why?
a. yard work or house work
b. hike or run
c. outdoor sports or indoor sports
d. fast food burger from the drive-thru or sit-down salad
e. yoga or aerobics
f. ice-cream or cake; what kind?
g. ice cubes or hot wax; where? why?
h. beneath the sheets or on top?
C although something having to do with music should have made this list.
2. What was your favorite subject in high school/secondary school/upper school? Science
3. Do you get a full 8 hours of sleep a night? Usually 6 or 7.
Why or why not? It's usually interrupted sleep because my brain is always overactive.
4. What is your favorite comfort food? These days, it's usually something from Little Caesars although I always pay for it the next day.  
5. Do you match up your socks after washing and drying them, and before putting them away? The laundromat usually does a good job with that.
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Always proudly black.

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Black Fetish

A while back, there was a story that came out about 2008 Republican vice presidential candidate Sarah Palin. Apparently, there's an unauthorized biography about her, in which the biographer claims that Sarah had a one night stand in 1987 with (at that time college) basketball superstar Glen Rice (the story has since been confirmed by Glen Rice).

During the early part of the college basketball season, Alaska hosts a yearly college basketball tournament called the Great Alaskan Shootout. The story went that Sarah had sex with Glen Rice while she was a sports reporter for an Alaskan television station and Glen was playing for the University of Michigan.

I thought about this story not to bash or to make fun of Sarah Palin or any perceived hypocrisy on her part for some of the things she may or may not have said over the years. I thought about this because of a line that I read in the first article that I saw when rereading about this story. The "reporter" supposedly quoted someone who said "Sarah and her sisters had a fetish for Black guys for a while". Either there are more Black guys in Alaska than first thought or the Palin family got their "Black fetish" on during the tournament every year.

That line lead me to recall the times that I have been told over the years that a woman was only sleeping with me because I was Black and that she only wanted to have sex with a Black guy to get it out of her system (this especially happens when I go to Vegas or South Beach). I suppose that women choose me for this because I'm a pretty clean cut guy and that I come from a middle class background and therefore, safe to fuck. That or because of the way media builds up the myth of the Black male as a "thug" lover with the huge cock who will rough White women up (see virtually any interracial porn video).

In America, it goes back to slavery. Slave owners would make the strongest Black men and women breed with each other in order to have stronger Black slaves. White slave owners' wives (and slave owners themselves like Thomas Jefferson) would get turned on by their slaves and have sex with them. Nowadays, there are White married women who will have sex with Black men in front of their husbands (again, see just about any interracial or amateur porn video). I guess they figure that if it's with a Black guy and hubby approves, then it's not cheating.

I will admit to being hypocritical on the matter in that I've used this fact to my advantage a lot and probably will continue to use it. After all, who am I to turn down sex with a beautiful woman, even if it's only to help them live out some fantasy. You want to fuck me because I'm Black and you've never been with a Black guy before? Fine then, we're fucking, so long as I think that you're good looking or sexy. You use me as a check mark on your bucket list, then I use you as a notch on my bedpost.

I will also admit to being rough and thug-like sometimes when I want to be and to not exactly being small when it comes to penis size. However, I love and have all kinds of sex. Sometimes it's rough, sometimes it's kinky and sometimes it's seductive and loving. I've never been with a certain race because I have a "fetish" for them. I'm actually pretty much equal opportunity when it comes to women. I sleep with women in spite of race, not because of it.

However, I've also had women say that they wouldn't sleep with me because they didn't "do" Black guys. That, to me, is the "you can fuck one of them but don't ever marry one of them" mentality. For some people, it's a "rebellious" act to sleep with someone from another race when you're young in order to piss off your parents or whoever (much like smoking, drinking, staying out late) or because the Black fetish (much like bondage) is now the mainstream thing to do.. However, you get it out of your system and fall back to the confines of whatever your social group deems is "acceptable behavior". For some, it's a bucket list item. See different places, try new things, fuck a Black guy. At least, that's what some people think.

There is something about all of this that I wonder about, though. If having sex with Black people is such a turn on, then why don't we see Black people having sex on tv or in the movies more? It's rare that you even see Black people having sex on screen at all. I think the world still has a long way to go when it comes to stupid stereotypes.

Friday, July 10, 2015

The Butterfly Chronicles - the Hunter Strikes

Your kiss, lethal to the touch. Your lips intoxicate me, weakening my resolve. When we met, I was the hunter; the one in control. Silly me. I was so distracted by your tongue searching the inside of my mouth that I didn't feel the cold steel of handcuffs that encircled my wrists, binding them to my bedpost until it was too late. Hunted by seduction. I should have seen it coming. I'm powerless, putty in your hands.

So, what will you do now that you have me as your prisoner? Oh, I see. You've decided to pull off my pants and underwear. My cock was ready for you to command at will since our first kiss. All 8 throbbing inches burst out as the stretched band of my underwear releases the head from its constraints. 

You gasp, then smile. You lick your lips, the saliva lubricating your plump lips. The salivate over what you're going to do with it. Shall you sit on it, giving it the pleasure that is your sugar walls? Not just yet. First, you have to pleasure your mouth. You love the taste of a hard throbbing cock. You crave it. You know that to control a man, to bring him to his knees, a dog at your whim, you will bring all of your oral skills to light.

Your first weapon will be your eyes. You study me, gauging my reaction as your mouth dances in rhythm up and down my throbbing member. You never lose eye contact through it all, except when studying my cock. You stare intensely, watching the large vein pulse with excitement. You smile, knowing that you're the one making me feel this way.

Your teeth drag up and down, feeling every bump in each vein. You increase your rhythm, stopping long enough to go further south to lick and suck on my balls. I try to resist. I think of everything else to not unleash my load. I can't let you win. I had plans of conquests, not to be captured, my cock being used as a fuck toy. 

Then, you find my ultimate weakness. Your fingers go south, crawling on the crack of my ass until they find their ultimate destination. You insert a couple fingers into my asshole while you continue sucking my balls as your hands stroke up and down my shaft. My resistance becomes futile. My breathing becomes heavier. You laugh, knowing you're going to make me cum soon. "Cum, baby, cum" you repeat over and over again. I thrust my hips up and down, bucking like an out of control bronco. My heart pounds heavier, my breathing more erratic, my moans and grunts become louder.

I can't help myself. You have me. You control me. I can't stop this. You're a pro, a succubus sent to have your way with me, then leave me a broken shell of a man, discarded, pleading for more. My volcano starts to flow upwards. Suddenly, I cry out in painful pleasure as my creamy lava erupts into your waiting mouth. You suck in every drop, tasting my cum on your lips and tongue. 

Once you're done milking me, I notice that you haven't spit, nor have you swallowed. Your body moves upwards. Your lips come to mine. You start to kiss me, only I find that you're spitting my cum back into my mouth. I swallow, sharing your reward for your job well done, as our tongues intertwine. I am yours. You have won. You laugh. You knew you were going to win the entire time. The hunter became the hunted, captured, bagged, tagged, torn, broken, spent, as it should be.

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

TMI Tuesday

Another TMI from

1. Why do you go to the movies?
a. To feel
b. To think
c. To escape
d. To enjoy the air conditioning
I never actually go to the movies. I just don't have time. Plus, I hate spending crazy New York City prices for movies that pretty much suck these days. 
2. In the last six months, have you viewed more movies at home or at the movie theatre? 
Definitely at home.
3. What was the last movie you watched at home? Something on Netflix.
At the theatre? None
4. Which do you enjoy most in a movie?
a. Two beings battling to death such as Godzilla and Mothra (or any foe), Gladiator
b. Car chase scene such as Ronin, Fast & the Furious
c. Major heist such as Italian Job, Ocean’s Eleven, Snatch
d. Epic battle scene such as Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings: Two Towers
Actually, all of the above.
5. In your opinion, which movie(s) have the best or most enjoyable sex scenes? For me, all of the best erotic movies were either done in the 1990s or on Cinemax back during their Skinemax days. The last sex scene that I thought was pretty erotic was probably something from a tv show: Banshee, to be precise.
6. Which of these is your favorite Hollywood movie plot?
a. Boy meets girl
b. The Jesus Story (apocalyptic; someone is saving the world)
c. Fish out of Water
d. Buddy movie
7. What is your favorite movie genre? (Thriller, comedy, action/adventure, drama, mystery, fright, etc.) Action / adventure.
8. In movies, what makes you cry?
a. mistreatment of a prime, likeable character
b. gushy, mushy romance (e.g., marriage proposals, couple finally proclaim their love)
c. very scary jump-out-at-you, make-you-pee-your-pants scenes
d. anyone or anything dying
BonusWhat is your favorite movie? Star Wars 
Why? Always has been since childhood.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Porn Star Tales Part 2

Pornographic actress Gauge.
Pornographic actress Gauge. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I have a party buddy I'll call Porn. She's not someone I hang out with unless she's at the same club that I'm at. We share mutual friends. The thing is that while I consider her more of an acquaintance than a friend, she's actually a rather interesting person and has lead quite the life.

When we're at the clubs, we'll have great conversations. The first thing she'll always tell you is that it’s a minefield being a porn star. With all the traps to it, it takes a strong person to navigate the industry and make money in it, according to Porn. Porn should know. She’s been at it for a few years and makes a good living at it.

She’s done everything related to the industry. She’s been a feature dancer at strip clubs. She’s been an escort and a call girl (not sure what the difference is). She runs her fan website and makes a lot of money doing those one-on-one cam shows. Actually, she’s made a shitload of money doing all of that. You would be surprised how much money people, both male and female, will pay cam girls sometimes.

She’s also been on the bad, stereotypical side of the industry. She’s had a boyfriend who thought he was her pimp. She’s been physically and sexually abused. She’s fucked many celebs. In fact, when she’s not working, she says she’ll only fuck celebs and rich people. That’s why I won’t even attempt to get with her. She’s done drugs. Actually, she’s done lots of drugs. Another reason why I won’t even attempt to get with her.

She’s seen a lot of celebs behaving badly, as have I. If she ever wrote a book, she could blow the lid off of Hollywood. Some of the guys who she’s fucked are supposedly happily married. She’s been passed around in hotel rooms by players on the same sports team. She’s seen the glamour and the pain. Through it all, she’s actually managed to keep her sanity.

The one thing she says about famous people is that the more successful they get, the more insecure they get, which leads to their bad behavior. I would tend to agree with that. It’s good to remember that when you’re watching awards shows, wishing you were these people. Sometimes, the grass isn’t greener on the other side. I stopped hero worshipping stars a long time ago. People like Porn, who have crawled into the darkest parts of both the porn and entertainment industries,  keep reminding me why.

Friday, July 3, 2015

Porn Star Tales Part 1

English: Cherie (porn star)
English: Cherie (porn star) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Party buddies. Everybody has them. People who you wouldn’t call friends but you have a good time with them when you’re at the clubs. One of mine is a semi famous porn star (no, I haven’t fucked her, for reasons that I’ll explain about in a later blog). We have mutual friends and see each other every now and then.

One night, not too long ago, we were in the vip section of a New York club with a lot of celebrities and, of course, groupies. We obseved this one groupie who purposely walked by a famous married athlete’s table at least 7 times before the athlete finally noticed her and called her over to his table. After about a half hour, we noticed that she disappeared. After looking a little closer, we finally noticed the groupie was under the table giving the athlete a blowjob.

It was at this point that my porn star drinking buddy and I got into a few deep conversations about groupies, the entertainment industry, and the porn star industry. A lot of it I already knew from being in the trenches of the entertainment industry and being privy to a lot of very bad behavior. Some things, though, I had not heard of before.

Groupies can basically be broken down into 4 categories, according to Porn, as I’ll call her from now on. The first type are the girls who like to fuck for ego sake. They love sex and get off on the fact that they’re fucking someone either rich or famous. They like the perks that come along with it but mainly, it’s just because they like fucking famous people so that they can brag about it. You usually find those women on Twitter, talking about popping bottles in clubs, hanging out with this celeb & that athlete. It helps their self worth, I suppose.

The second type are the girls who fuck these guys for the money. This group has 2 subtypes. The first subtype are the girls who fuck for material things. When they fuck, they expect to get paid, either with money (which would technically make them call girls or hookers, depending on your point of view) or with gifts, like expensive clothes, breast implants, injections, trips, whatever. I know of a groupie who got flown out with another groupie to an exotic island to visit a famous rapper who was on tour, just so he could have a 3some with them.

The second and more dangerous subtype are the groupies who look at these guys as welfare checks. They want to get pregnant by these guys so that the famous guy will pay child support. They then might use that money to help take care of the kid. Most times, though, they use it to buy expensive things or to hunt for another famous guy.

The next type of groupie is the type who fucks famous guys for career advancement. These are usually the models, singers,  actresses, and wannabes who think that being seen with a famous guy will help their careers. It usually works. A lot of the time, guys will take advantage of this; hence, the casting couch mentality. I know of a guy who owns one of those model magazines who has a basic way of working. First, he the fucks the models in his magazine a few times. If the girl’s good in bed, that girl gets the magazine cover. If they suck in bed or decide not to put out to this guy, they get bounced and in some cases, blacklisted. I’m sure there will eventually be a lawsuit one day. For now, that’s his game and the ladies have to play it.

The last type of groupie is the type who looks at these guys as life long meal tickets. They want to bed these guys, in hopes that these guys will fall in love with them and marry them; thus, insuring that they’ll be taken care of for the rest of their lives.

Now, I’m not saying that all women who sleep with these guys are like this. I’m not even saying that it’s only women. Lord knows I’ve seen a lot of men who do this with both male and female celebs. Plus, when you think about it, a lot of the blame has to be given to the celeb. They know that there are people out there doing this to them, yet they choose to ignore that fact and have their fun. Whatever floats their boats, I suppose.

I just thought it was funny that Porn broke it down so easily. She oughta know. She’s a self confessed one of these types of women. I won’t tell which one she said she was. You can’t hate the player. Hell, sometimes, you can’t even hate the game.